I’m so happy I’m taking the time to decorate and style my room. New York is a jungle and doesn’t feel like home yet. When I walk into my room after a long day at work, I want to decompress and be cozy. Making sure that my small space looks homie and pretty is important to me. Happy I made my little desk/working/studio area a functional one. It’s tiny but it’s working out. Decorating and visualizing is such a creative outlet, so therapeutic, so calming. Ever since my set up has been like this, I have been way more efficient with my work. I feel so happy sitting at my desk. One day, when I have my own place, I want to decorate the shit out of it… of course with a great design aesthetic but I want it to be a huge project. I also want to design my house?! I know I’m rambling but I just love putting my words out into the universe hehe. Designing something would be so meaningful. That would definitely be the dream.
I’m weird. I can find inspiration from anything. From being in nature, having a drink with a friend, a piece of dried coral that is used for paper weight, through dance, music. I’m open. All my senses are open to creativity. Yes, I’m going through the highs and lows of moving to this city. I’m not 100% but learning to do good with what I get, what I have, and to be grateful. You only have yourself sometimes. I’m an artist in every way and I’m proud. It’s all I got and all I got to give. Somehow I’m still doing fine. I think it’s because I learned to let the little things make me happy. I just let my crazy inspirations push me… to see more, do more, laugh more.
The beginning of the month, I attended this conversation panel with important speakers talking about inclusivity. Lindsay Wagner who is the EOC of Teen Vogue said something that stood out to me. She said that when you don’t know what to do in life, when you have a creative block, go back to the person you were when you were a kid and find inspiration from there. Her insight and conversation about the topic has been helping me. Been feeling so stuck lately, but when I started to decorate, draw, cook, do everything, and dance… life started moving, I had more motivation to figure my shit out and to understand what I really want. One day my mind will be worth it. One day someone will just get me.